Sunday, November 11, 2012

On The Path To Receive MY Healing

Isaiah 40:31
They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength: They shall mount up with wings like eagles: They shall run and not be weary: and they shall walk and not faint.

So when i think of eagles Beauty and Strength is what comes to mind, when I think Of myself, uuhhmmm Not so much .

I want to point something about the Bald Eagles.. 

* Bald Eagles Fly above any storm, they do not hide.

Instead of HIDING like most creatures do during a storm, a Bald Eagle will challenge the storm by going trough it, to FLY ABOVE the storm.. 

I wanna be like that, Courageous, storms to me represent current circumstances. Circumstances that draw us into hiding. 
I want to look directly at the storm, RISE UP, Challenge it, Go trough my Storm and finally be Soaring OVER my trails and tribulations.. 
I can almost guarantee going trough the storm isn't an easy thing to do. It will push you back, it will make you question your strength, your faith, and possibly your sanity.. And for the most part of it, you will Fly trough it Alone.. (well naturally speaking)

How can i relate? Well Receiving MY healing has been a uphill battle, mostly a lonely one. I have wonderful and faithful friends and family who support me and encourage me, and help me in every possible way, however the the hardest battle fought, is always in the heart and mind of oneself
That's where you find yourselves alone for the most part..
Staying full of faith when i see little to NO progress is hard, waking up to aching joints, unable to move is hard, not been able to run and play with my children is hard, not been to do normal daily tasks its hard, believing and trusting God that my husband finds me beautiful even though i have outward deformities is hard. It challenges me to keep my Faith, and To Trust My God. 
Those are my battles those are my storms.
I Fight those battles alone, No one can fight those for me, no one can fend off negative thoughts for me, no one can help me trust God stronger, no one can. 
He of course is always there.
"I Can do All things in Him who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13)
I once heard a phrase, that "Wise people choose their battles"
but how about the battles that choose me?
I certainly never would have chosen to have Fought for my health against Rheumatoid Arthritis.
But I Fight, I fight because He strengthens me, I fight because showing the enemy I wont back down glorifies God. I fight Because God has made us Warriors. I Fight because I'm a Warrior, a warrior who will Rise above the storm like an Eagle.
(Been a Soldier is a position, Been a Warrior is an attitude #Warrior Chick #Holly Wagner) 
His Word is True. 
"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.."..
Every morning when its hard, i wait upon Him, I cry out to Him, sometimes pitifully, like i don't trust in Him at all. He is Faithful, He fills me with new strength, not everlasting strength but with enough strength to endure. I Forget to make Him the the Rock of my Foundation in all things sometimes. But He never forgets me.
He RENEWS my Strength, that I might mount up with wings like Eagles.. Every time.